To Be Loved

Broken hearted
You should be ashamed.
Pictures on my wall
Are thrown away.
No words left
Nothing left to say.
You were gone
Why are you back today?

And I tried to fight back
All the words needed to attack
Think you didn't deserve that
But what have I been thrown at?

*chorus*
And you might think I'm crazy
Full of twisted fantasies
But I'll never know what it feels like
To live life normally
To have something with simplicity
I can only imagine what it feels like
To be loved.

To be loved.

When you were gone
You didn't have a care.
Memories disappeared
in thin air.
You just put us all
In despair.
All I asked the world is
"is this fair?"


And I tried to fight back
All the words needed to attack
Think you didn't deserve that
But what have I been thrown at?

*chorus*
And you might think I'm crazy
Full of twisted fantasies
But I'll never know what it feels like
To live life normally
To have something with simplicity
I can only imagine what it feels like
To be loved.

You're not a hero
So stop trying to patch the hole
I don't need your saving
I'm fine with being alone
You left me years ago
You didn't even care
All I did was imagine
What it's like if you were here.


*chorus*
And you might think I'm crazy
Full of twisted fantasies
But I'll never know what it feels like
To live life normally
To have something with simplicity
I can only imagine what it feels like
To be loved.



^ That amazeballs moment when I wrote a song after what seems like forever :)

Le Fin (almost) :D

I'm almost finished with my project! Yay!

I know, it's been about 2 months since I last posted, and I send you my deepest apologies on that matter. 

But on another note, (ahahah get it? Note? Music? AHAHAHA. No? Ok. ) Friday was my last day recording in the studio. :( 

I had the most incredible time recording and I cannot thank my mentor enough for this wonderful opportunity. (yeah, this independent study project requires us to have a mentor, if you didn't know. How else would I have gotten the chance to record a song?) I can't even stress enough how much I've learned in the past 4 months and I'm so sad that it's all coming to an end. 

Oddly enough, I'm also sad about finish up all the paper work and research that comes with this project. 

12 more days. Oh my gosh. 12 more days and it's all over. The project is due on the 26th. (Same day as my big trip! AHAHA :D ) 

I don't recall posting the lyrics of the song on this blog, as it's a mashup of 2 songs I wrote over the summer, but what the heck, I'll post it again (if I already did).

Drumroll please... *insert intense drumroll here*

Daydreaming

I can’t decide

Where my heart should go.

I can’t figure out

Whether it’s a yes of no.

My heart’s falling

You can’t even see.

I can’t risk to break

So please just catch me.

You can see through me though

You won’t understand.

You reeled me in, can’t get out

Can I get a chance?

[Chorus]

I can’t keep my head straight.

My chances keep walking away.

All I want is you to stay

But no you won’t.

I’m stuck daydreaming.

I try to forget.

I can’t seem to force it.

Can I run away?

Because it’s too hard to admit.

I can fall

And I can crash,

But will you catch me

Time’s going by too fast.

You can see through me though

You won’t understand.

You reeled me in, can’t get out

Can I get a chance?

[Chorus]

I can’t keep my head straight. ( I can't keep my head straight) 

My chances keep walking away. (Walking away)

All I want is you to stay (You to stay) 

But no you won’t. (No you won't) 

I can’t keep my head straight.

My chances keep walking away.

All I want is you to stay

But no

I’m stuck daydreaming.

While I'm at it, I might as well post another pic!