Friday Night.

I like how I'm currently writing a song while eating chocolate chip cookies. Yum! And it's currently 12:35AM.
This is how I spend my Friday nights. :) Isn't it amazing!
Chocolate gives me brain power. Totally.
Well then, as usual, I'll be posting another song. (or at least a part of it.)

I have about 2 verses and the pre-chorus at the moment. They're a bit rough and they need some editing but they're not horrible either.

Do you know the memories in my heart?
Can you read my mind?
I'm dreaming crazy thoughts in my head,
Every night.

I never thought it would come true,
The day I thought that you didn't care.
And each day it's transforming,
Dreams to nightmares.

How long will it be 'till it will be the same?
How long will it be 'till you change...?

Haha. Isn't it deep?
Thanks for reading. Keep reading my blog. I really appreciate it.
Peace!

There was a pile of crumpled up papers in the corner of my room.

I was trying my hardest to finish this song that I started a few days ago. Luckily, I did finish it. Yay!
This song is really personal to me but whenever I read it, it makes me feel better. It's something that really helped me through my tough times. After writing it, my heart felt so much better and lighter.

Songwriting is really therapy. :)

About Me

I've got to make a stand for myself,
So just move out of the way.
I've got to break some rules,
So you can hear what I have to say.

I've got to make myself feel superoir,
 And stand up tall for who I am,
I've got to believe that I can reach the stars,
Since you won't help me get there.

I wont to hide under my shell,
I've been hiding all this time.
For as long as I can remember,
You were never there, helping me fly.

Why are you running back,
When you know I wont take you?
Why do you keep trying,
When your chances are all used?
Forget about the excuses,
They're nonsense.
If only I had the feeling that you cared,
About me.

I've got to make sure I'm okay,
So I don't end up breaking down,
I'm hiding everything with a smile,
Because you can't read my mind.


I wont to hide under my shell,
I've been hiding all this time.
For as long as I can remember,
You were never there, helping me fly.


Why are you running back,
When you know I wont take you?
Why do you keep trying,
When your chances are all used?
Forget about the excuses,
They're nonsense.
If only I had the feeling that you cared,
About me.

I'm sick and tired because of you,
You're pretending to be someone you're not.
You're not the person who cares.
I know... oh I know...

If you did care, I would've gotten the feeling in my heart...
 
Why are you running back,
When you know I wont take you?
Why do you keep trying,
When your chances are all used?
Forget about the excuses,
They're nonsense.
If only I had the feeling that you cared,
About me.


If you did care, I would've gotten the feeling in my heart...

What an embarassment.

I was looking through some files on my laptop and I found a document of some of my old songs that were typed up. I think they were about 3 years ago...
I'm actually embarrassing myself by showing you a snippet of my older songs, but when I read over it, I just laughed and I thought it was pretty good, considering that I started to write songs at that time. (maybe a year or 2 earlier.)
Well, here it goes. :)

First impressions make a big difference,
Of what other see.
You're able to see the outside,
Not the inside of me.
You just try to find who I am,
And not let me free,
It's hard to change myself,
When others believe...

That I have a perfect life...
Trust me, no I don't.
You think that...
I have no worries inside,
But you don't understand,
That I just keep trying,
To make my life what I want it to be.
I just wish that you could believe,
That I'm not living my life perfectly...

Sometimes you expect me to be so great,
It's hard to even try.
Every time I make a mistake,
You don't let it pass by.
You think I can do everything,
Do you know it's a lie?
I'm just starting to grow my wings,
And you're already making me fly...

 

And the hyperness begins! ☺

If you read the "about me" it's written that I get hyper about the littlest things. That, my friends, its true.
At the moment, I am getting really hyper because I just learned some new songs on Tino. Tino, as you all know is my guitar. Some of the songs that I learned are...
Teenage Dream- Katy Perry
Like a G6- Far East Movement
Mine- Taylor Swift
Teardrops on My Guitar- Taylor Swift (my favorite!!) ♥
The Only Exception- Paramore
Grenade- Bruno Mars
World of Chances- Demi Lovato
This is Me- Demi Lovato feat. Jonas Brothers

That's all I've learned right now.

Thanks for reading! :)

Changed.

Hey everyone!
I just heard this song on the radio (I don't know what it's called. haha)  and I came up with this new song that I'm about to post. It's not finished, I still need to make a bridge.
So, here goes...

Each day is ticking by so fast,
I never knew time could make an impact,
On you.

I knew it was never simple, not easy,
To get used to something different,
On you.

As we take small steps to move forward,
As I'm trying to not look back.
As I'm trying to let go,
Inside I'm wishing that you know...

Hey darling,
Did you ever know,
My eyes were shining,
I was mind blown.
When we first met,
Back in the old days,
Everything we had,
Has changed.

Even until this time, you never cared,
Every single day you make me stare,
All around.

Have you ever realized or found the clues,
Everything that I've been sending you.
I guess not.

As we take small steps to move forward,
As I'm trying to not look back.
As I'm trying to let go,
Inside I'm wishing that you know...

Hey darling,
Did you ever know,
My eyes were shining,
I was mind blown.
When we first met,
Back in the old days,
Everything we had,
Has changed.


Okay. So that's all I have so far. I remember the song was from Taylor Swift. Haha. I'm obsessed with her. I also love her guitar. :)
Please tell me how this is. I would really like some feedback. I feel like this is one of my best songs yet.
Thanks. :]

A natural habit...

When I write songs, I always have a few pages just for doodles.
I believe you've already seen them from some of my older posts. Well, here's another doodle page that I worked on. And it ends up being the last page of my songbook.

Time to get a new one. :)

This doodle page isn't exactly full of "doodles." It's a whole bunch of my favorite song lyrics and titles of my favorite songs, and favorite artists. Some of these lyrics are actually inspirational and they motivate me.

This is basically what I do when I'm stuck on a song. Writing other lyrics helps me come up with more of my own lyrics. I just figured that our recently and now I do it all the time. :)

As you can see, I have written "Tino" somewhere in this picture. Tino is actually my guitar's name. (haha, yes. I actually did name it.)

I'm really sorry if some of the lyrics are messy. Sometimes my printing is extremely neat and other times it's really messy. It just depends on my mood. : D

Accidental incident.

So I happened to mess around with the template designer and I came across this background. I clicked on this background to see what it would look like. Personally, I liked it but I wasn't planning to change anything. I unintentionally clicked on the "apply to blog" button and it took me back to the home page. I'm starting to get used to it.
Let me know what you think. Do you like this background or the one I had before.
They sort of look similar... :)

Thanks.

Confusion is like a time warp, sucking in all your thoughts and drifting you in a new world.

The title is actually a line from a poem. I really like it so I thought I'd put it as my title.
It really has nothing to do with this chorus that I'm posting.
You like?
So, speaking of choruses, here it is.

"Do you know that i'm okay?
Do you know that i'm fine?
There's something that's hurting me inside.
Do you care about how I feel?
Do you care if it's not the same.
If only I could replay.

And inspiration kicks in.

HEY! IT'S FINALLY 2011!!! Happy New Year! :D 
Did you all have fun partying? 

Anyways, I read this poem that my friend showed me and it inspired me to write this. 

Well, technically it was from 2 weeks ago but I somehow found this in my notebook. 

How lucky? :)

I hope you like this. Comments and critique are appreciated. 

I Promise...

I promise I’ll try my best,

I promise to walk away.

But do you realize that it’s hurting me inside.

I promise to stand strong.

I promise to find a way out,

But don’t you understand my heart?

I promise I’ll find a way out,

I promise to never bother you,

But when you treat me like that, how can I stop?

I promise to stay as myself,

I promise to be true,

But if only you cared and loved me too.