And those mirrors remind us
Of how worthless,
Meaningless,
Unappreciated,
Repulsive
And ignored we are.
But do the mirrors tell the tales,
Or do our eyes?
You know what this post title reminds me of? "Breaking Free." The song from High School Musical.
Yes. I went there.
Bleeeeck. (I'm sorry if that offended anyone. My apologies.)
Now, I can see why I was voted for "The Next Disney Star" in my school.Wow. It's kind of awkward... especially since it's on my yearbook too.
I declare that I love Disney World and Disney Land. No doubt. I mean, who doesn't. But, I find it really awkward to be voted as the "Disney Star" mainly because I kinda wanted to be one when I was nine.
If only I was naive as I was when I was nine. *sigh*
Now, I choose to be a Grammy Award Winning Singer and Songwriter. Is that too much to ask? Yes.
Anyway, new song. *Happy dances*
Break Free
Where in the world you are,
I've been trying to ask the stars.
Wondering if they could find you.
All there is should be,
Please just let it be.
I don't want another nightmare.
Some say, that I'm searching too hard, and
I'll never make it far.
I'll be standing in front of you,
In victory.
-Chorus-
Why did you have to
Run away, kick the stones and break me.
I will one day find you,
And get the truth, figure out why I'm hurting.
I won't get lost now.
You're not worth my time.
'Cause I'll run away, kick the stones and break free.
I'm walking down an empty road,
I'm being deceived by unknown.
You're hiding in my shadows.
My heart has been taken out,
I'm yearning for another way out.
So I can get it back.
Some say, that I'm searching too hard, and
I'll never make it far.
I'll be standing in front of you,
In victory.
-Chorus-
Why did you have to
Run away, kick the stones and break me.
I will one day find you,
And get the truth, figure out why I'm hurting.
I won't get lost now.
You're not worth my time.
'Cause I'll run away, kick the stones and break free.
Why did you have to
Run away, kick the stones and break me.
I will one day find you,
And get the truth, figure out why I'm hurting.
I won't get lost now.
You're not worth my time.
'Cause I'll run away, kick the stones and break free.
Okay, a very typical Mani song. Very desolate. Hah. This song may confuse some people. It's just about a difficult situation I was in months ago... basically I had a nightmare about it recently.
Hope you are enjoying the last of you summer! And if school started already, then good luck and have fun! I know that some of my friends have started school now.
You.
Who are you?
What have you done with my life?
So many decisions have been made,
My life has been turned upside down.
I've sacrificed so much.
Do you even care?
What.
What are you trying to do?
Run away from here,
I can't take it anymore.
Why should you be trusted?
I can't even open my heart out.
Everyone else can,
Except for me.
Go.
I don't care.
I never got what I deserved,
Why should you get it back now?
I've tried to hard to please you, Prove myself and cared.
Did I get anything back?
I'm engulfed in my misery.
Cry.
It's all I ever do nowadays.
My dreams have turned into nightmares.
Sleepless nights.
I've turned into an insomniac.
You portray an enemy;
Someone who pushes me down.
And I'm falling.
Welcome to my upside-down life.
Will you ever bother fixing it so it's right side up?
Okay, I know I've been obsessed with poetry. Haha. This is actually a poem based on a mixture of events that have happened in my life. I know, depressing but a good portion of it is exaggerated. (phew, haha.)
Skyscraper. Demi Lovato. Enough said. Check it out:
I just heard this song and I started to bawl my eyes out. Is that normal? heh.
IT'S JUST THAT THIS SONG IS SO AMAZING AND INSPIRING.
Let's just say, when I hear a song like that, I get inspired and then I come up with an uber depressing song too.
Honestly speaking, sometimes I do feel this way.
Anyway, here it goes: Shattered Glass
I'm surrounded by the walls,
That are pushing me inside.
No one hears me, no one cares,
About my screams and cries.
I'm still wishing and hoping,
That maybe I'll have a chance.
But my moment seems like it's
Slipping right out of my hands.
*chorus*
What do you feel when I'm in pain?
You seem to think I'm going insane.
But you don't realize.
You don't know what I'm going through.
The truth is what you're seeing through.
But I won't break.
I won't break like shattered glass.
I watch the raindrops fall and shatter,
Breaking like pieces, separating apart.
Your torments, your laughter,
Is hitting me inside like darts.
I want to see the skies clear,
And know that it's alright.
I'm going crazy but I'm standing tall,
Just to show you that I'm fine.
*chorus*
What do you feel when I'm in pain?
You seem to think I'm going insane.
But you don't realize.
You don't know what I'm going through.
The truth is what you're seeing through.
But I won't break.
I won't break like shattered glass.
Go close the door and run away.
I can't take it anymore.
Why do you make me feel so worthless,
It's making me heart sore.
*chorus*
What do you feel when I'm in pain?
You seem to think I'm going insane.
But you don't realize.
You don't know what I'm going through.
The truth is what you're seeing through.
But I won't break.
I won't break like shattered glass.
The truth is what you're seeing through.
I wont break like shattered glass.
^ Okay, so yeah. That's it!!
I know it's really sad but I hope y'all like it.
I should really start writing more cheerful songs. :D
I've been home all day long. Gee, how wonderful, isn't it? What a great way to spend my spring break. I think this day has been wasted. I mean, seriously, I could have written a song.
But I didn’t.
I could have gone out. But I didn’t. I could have played outside; mainly because for once it’s actually nice outside. But I didn’t. I could have-
Yeah, you get the point.
I just didn’t, okay? I stayed home, sat comfortably on my sofa wearing my sweatpants, watched TV and didn’t do anything productive. Well, actually there was something productive.
I ate.
Eating food is quite an important and productive thing to do. If you don’t agree, then prove me wrong. I mean, eating is one of the ways that you’re healthy and ALIVE. Am I correct? When am I NOT correct? Probably one in a million.
I think I stretched that out a bit too far. Okay, I’ll go with one in a thousand.
Fine, fine. Okay. One in a hundred. Don’t push it.
As of right now, I’m sitting here with a notebook and a pen trying to come up with a new song. Honestly, I think I’ll end up coming up with a song at 3:00 AM, when I’m in the middle of a wacky dream.
When that happens, I don’t want to get out of my cozy bed and to my bookshelf and go through my however many notebooks I have until I find my songbook and try to write in the dark. Once I’m done, I get thirsty and I think to myself “Dude, you just wrote an awesome song. Now you must reward yourself with a cold glass of H2O.”
Yes, I used a scientific term.
Back to the story of my life. Do I go get a glass of H2O?
The answer my friend, is no. Why? Due to the fact that when a person, or to be exact, a family is asleep, people generally turn their lights off. Especially when it’s nighttime. No lights equal darkness. I don’t like to go down the stairs when it’s dark and I prefer not to even walk around the house when I can barely see what I’m doing or where I’m going. I don’t have night vision. I consider you awesome if you do have night vision.
In other words, I’m too lazy to go downstairs, (in the dark!) and get a glass of water, then actually drink the water and go back up.
Story time is over.
Bytheway, I’m in the mood for a soft, chewy, chocolaty cookie. Yum. :)
