Leaving.

Leaving

There's a voice inside my head,
Telling me to get you out of my life.
Hesitation takes over me.

Splitting thoughts,
Can't believe what you did.
After many years of misery.

I could've seen it.
I knew it's coming.
Didn't know it would be now.
Your selfish hands,
Got closer to me.
Is it my fault or yours?

*chorus*
You know what you've done,
Now, those days are gone.
You pushed me out and I'm not coming back in.
You made life into a game,
I didn't fall into the traps you made.
And now I'm leaving, leaving, leaving, leaving.

Angry words fill your mouth,
I'm trying to defend love.
Am I doing something wrong?

My mind is racing thoughts.
Will they ever be heard?
I always knew all along...

I could've seen it.
I knew it's coming.
Didn't know it would be now.
You've pushed me away,
We can't go back.
Nothing can change now.

*chorus*
You know what you've done,
Now, those days are gone.
You pushed me out and I'm not coming back in.
You made life into a game,
I didn't fall into the traps you made.
And now I'm leaving, leaving, leaving, leaving.

Words left unsaid.
Though remain in my head.
Will you hear them at all?

Your cold hearts will break,
Inside there's too much hate.
Nothing can change now.

Because,
You don't know the pain I've been through.
You tried to understand but it's no use.
Stop being double faced, it's not working.
It's all fake and now I'm leaving.

*chorus*
You know what you've done,
Now, those days are gone.
You pushed me out and I'm not coming back in.
You made life into a game,
I didn't fall into the traps you made.
And now I'm leaving, leaving, leaving, leaving.

You don't know what I've been through,
You never believe in the truth.
I've given up, I tried listening.
You've broken the bond and now I'm leaving.


It's been a tough week for me. I know, bad timing. Holidays- it's supposed to be happy!
Gee, how happy is this song?
It's been a while since I posted a full song anyway... 
I kind of needed to vent out somehow.
Thanks for reading!

Let's hope Christmas turns upside down and I'll have a cheerful song.

Break Free (New Song.) and Disney.

You know what this post title reminds me of? "Breaking Free." The song from High School Musical.

Yes. I went there.

Bleeeeck.  (I'm sorry if that offended anyone. My apologies.)

Now, I can see why I was voted for "The Next Disney Star" in my school.Wow. It's kind of awkward... especially since it's on my yearbook too.

I declare that I love Disney World and Disney Land. No doubt. I mean, who doesn't. But, I find it really awkward to be voted as the "Disney Star" mainly because I kinda wanted to be one when I was nine.

If only I was naive as I was when I was nine. *sigh*

Now, I choose to be a Grammy Award Winning Singer and Songwriter. Is that too much to ask? Yes.

Anyway, new song. *Happy dances*


Break Free

Where in the world you are,
I've been trying to ask the stars.
Wondering if they could find you.

All there is should be,
Please just let it be.
I don't want another nightmare.

Some say, that I'm searching too hard, and
I'll never make it far.
I'll be standing in front of you,
In victory.

-Chorus-
Why did you have to
Run away, kick the stones and break me.
I will one day find you,
And get the truth, figure out why I'm hurting.
I won't get lost now.
You're not worth my time.
'Cause I'll run away, kick the stones and break free.

I'm walking down an empty road,
I'm being deceived by unknown.
You're hiding in my shadows.

My heart has been taken out,
I'm yearning for another way out.
So I can get it back.

Some say, that I'm searching too hard, and
I'll never make it far.
I'll be standing in front of you,
In victory.


-Chorus-
Why did you have to
Run away, kick the stones and break me.
I will one day find you,
And get the truth, figure out why I'm hurting.
I won't get lost now.
You're not worth my time.
'Cause I'll run away, kick the stones and break free.

Why did you have to
Run away, kick the stones and break me.
I will one day find you,
And get the truth, figure out why I'm hurting.
I won't get lost now.
You're not worth my time.
'Cause I'll run away, kick the stones and break free.


Okay, a very typical Mani song. Very desolate. Hah. This song may confuse some people. It's just about a difficult situation I was in months ago... basically I had a nightmare about it recently.

Hope you are enjoying the last of you summer! And if school started already, then good luck and have fun! I know that some of my friends have started school now.

NOT ME. HAH.

Well, in twelve days. *Sadface*

My Inner Poet. Part 3.

You.
Who are you?
What have you done with my life?
So many decisions have been made,
My life has been turned upside down.
I've sacrificed so much.
Do you even care?

What.
What are you trying to do?
Run away from here,
I can't take it anymore.
Why should you be trusted?
I can't even open my heart out.
Everyone else can,
Except for me.

Go.
I don't care.
I never got what I deserved,
Why should you get it back now?
I've tried to hard to please you,
Prove myself and cared.
Did I get anything back?
I'm engulfed in my misery.

Cry.
It's all I ever do nowadays.
My dreams have turned into nightmares.
Sleepless nights.
I've turned into an insomniac.
You portray an enemy;
Someone who pushes me down.
And I'm falling.

Welcome to my upside-down life.
Will you ever bother fixing it so it's right side up?

Okay, I know I've been obsessed with poetry. Haha. This is actually a poem based on a mixture of events that have happened in my life. I know, depressing but a good portion of it is exaggerated. (phew, haha.)

Happy Reading!

Legit Notebook Right Here.

So, I mentioned a few posts ago that I will show you my awesome new notebook. Well, here it is.

Don't you just love the webcam quality?
I sure don't.

If you can't read the very small print, here's what it says:


I CAN'T SLEEP.
A journal for passing the time when insomnia strikes and my brain is circling in on itself, cannibalizing the trivialities of the day and exaggerating the ticking of the clock, reminding me that every minute spent awake is another minute closer to when I'll have to get up, though many of the greatest artists and sages were insomniacs and that's part of how they got so much done, so if I can't sleep, I might as well write and channel my misery in something productive.

^ ISN'T THAT COOL?

Time for me to pour my misery into this notebook. Haha.

Spazzing At My Camera. Part 2.

Still spazzing. Still discombobulated.
How wonderful.

I must do something about this... immediately.

Well, I wouldn't say immediately due to the fact that it's midnight. Great. :(

TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY.
Hopefully the world wont end. No, it wont. I said so.

So, yeah. Not in the mood to rage over my camera now.
I'll try to "fix" it tomorrow, if I can.

AND BLOGGER, PRETTY, PRETTY, PLEASE LET ME POST HD VIDEOS NOW.

Kay. Thanks. Bye.

Nighty night.

Spazzing At My Camera. Part 1

Oh gosh, why does my voice sound like... erm... poop in a camera?

HOW ON EARTH DO PEOPLE MAKE THEIR VOICES SOUND GOOD IN A CAMERA.

HOW?
HOW?
HOW?

The frustration is killing me. I'm discombobulated, like, legitly. discombobulated.

Is 'legitly' even a word? I don't care. I shall make it one.

Time for me to rage. Here we go.
Three.
Two.
One.

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-slams head on keyboard-

Ouch.

Any-who, that's not the worst part. Every time I make an attempt to post a video on here, blogger will gladly ruin my moment and I will have a pop-up saying  "We are sorry, but there was an error while uploading your video.

WHAT IS THIS INSANITY?

Does blogger not like uploading new high definition videos? I think not.

Ragequit.

Now, I shall eat sweet oranges and grapes while crying in misery.