Hope, Peace, Love, and... Perfect?

I just thought that I would talk about the earthquake and tsunami that occurred in Japan. (March 11, 2011)
Why? Because the poem that I'm about to post is kind of serious and heartwarming just like the event that had occurred in Japan.
I actually wanted to post this before, around the time the earthquake and tsunami happened but I didn't have my laptop at the time.
It's very sad to see a very strong country washed away in a matter of minutes. And I really do hope that Japan will grow into an even stronger nation. I send my hope, love and prayers to Japan and I wish for the best.

On the topic for hoping and wishing for the best, I'm going to post a poem that I wrote about a year and a half ago. It's actually about finding who you are and trying to be your best but it's a very special and heartwarming poem for me because whenever I read it, it makes me stronger.

Here it goes,

Perfect

When I close my eyes,
And drift away,
I'm inside a whole new world.

I'm inside my world,
Where my dreams come true,
And I realize I'm not alone.

When the real world beckons,
I feel like I'm pressured,
To be someone I'm not.

Do I shy away?
And hide who I am,
I cannot pretend.

I don't want to be that other,
But I want to blend in.
And not stand out in the crowd.

I have to find myself,
That me that has drifted away,
I have to search far away.

The me that I am,
It's hard to change.
Am I sorry if I can't change myself?

I just keep trying,
Look upon me and realize,
That I'm not perfect.

What an embarassment.

I was looking through some files on my laptop and I found a document of some of my old songs that were typed up. I think they were about 3 years ago...
I'm actually embarrassing myself by showing you a snippet of my older songs, but when I read over it, I just laughed and I thought it was pretty good, considering that I started to write songs at that time. (maybe a year or 2 earlier.)
Well, here it goes. :)

First impressions make a big difference,
Of what other see.
You're able to see the outside,
Not the inside of me.
You just try to find who I am,
And not let me free,
It's hard to change myself,
When others believe...

That I have a perfect life...
Trust me, no I don't.
You think that...
I have no worries inside,
But you don't understand,
That I just keep trying,
To make my life what I want it to be.
I just wish that you could believe,
That I'm not living my life perfectly...

Sometimes you expect me to be so great,
It's hard to even try.
Every time I make a mistake,
You don't let it pass by.
You think I can do everything,
Do you know it's a lie?
I'm just starting to grow my wings,
And you're already making me fly...

 

Confusion is like a time warp, sucking in all your thoughts and drifting you in a new world.

The title is actually a line from a poem. I really like it so I thought I'd put it as my title.
It really has nothing to do with this chorus that I'm posting.
You like?
So, speaking of choruses, here it is.

"Do you know that i'm okay?
Do you know that i'm fine?
There's something that's hurting me inside.
Do you care about how I feel?
Do you care if it's not the same.
If only I could replay.

PERFECTLY

I am sorry I haven't been on in a while... I was a bit too busy...

Well, now here I am... and more songs are on their way.

Here is a new song that I wrote recently... :)


PERFECTLY

First impressions make a big difference,
Of what other see.
You're able to see the outside,
Not the inside of me.
You just try to find who I am,
And not let me free,
It's hard to change myself,
When others believe...

That I have a perfect life...
Trust me, no I don't.
You think that...
I have no worries inside,
But you don't understand,
That I just keep trying,
To make my life what I want it to be.
I just wish that you could believe,
That I'm not living my life perfectly...

Sometimes you expect me to be so great,
It's hard to even try.
Every time I make a mistake,
You don't let it pass by.
You think I can do everything,
Do you know it's a lie?
I'm just starting to grow my wings,
And you're already making me fly...

You think that...
I have a perfect life,
Trust me, no I don't.
You think that...
I have no worries inside,
But you don't understand,
That I just keep trying,
To make my life what I want it to be.
I just wish that you could believe,
That I'm not living my life perfectly...

Perfectly... Perfectly...

I'm not living my life... Perfectly...

It's hard to change myself,
When others believe...

That I have a perfect life,
Trust me, no I don't.
You think that...
I have no worries inside,
But you don't understand,
That I just keep trying,
To make my life what I want it to be.
I just wish that you could believe,
That I'm not living my life perfectly...