To Be Loved

Broken hearted
You should be ashamed.
Pictures on my wall
Are thrown away.
No words left
Nothing left to say.
You were gone
Why are you back today?

And I tried to fight back
All the words needed to attack
Think you didn't deserve that
But what have I been thrown at?

*chorus*
And you might think I'm crazy
Full of twisted fantasies
But I'll never know what it feels like
To live life normally
To have something with simplicity
I can only imagine what it feels like
To be loved.

To be loved.

When you were gone
You didn't have a care.
Memories disappeared
in thin air.
You just put us all
In despair.
All I asked the world is
"is this fair?"


And I tried to fight back
All the words needed to attack
Think you didn't deserve that
But what have I been thrown at?

*chorus*
And you might think I'm crazy
Full of twisted fantasies
But I'll never know what it feels like
To live life normally
To have something with simplicity
I can only imagine what it feels like
To be loved.

You're not a hero
So stop trying to patch the hole
I don't need your saving
I'm fine with being alone
You left me years ago
You didn't even care
All I did was imagine
What it's like if you were here.


*chorus*
And you might think I'm crazy
Full of twisted fantasies
But I'll never know what it feels like
To live life normally
To have something with simplicity
I can only imagine what it feels like
To be loved.



^ That amazeballs moment when I wrote a song after what seems like forever :)

Leaving.

Leaving

There's a voice inside my head,
Telling me to get you out of my life.
Hesitation takes over me.

Splitting thoughts,
Can't believe what you did.
After many years of misery.

I could've seen it.
I knew it's coming.
Didn't know it would be now.
Your selfish hands,
Got closer to me.
Is it my fault or yours?

*chorus*
You know what you've done,
Now, those days are gone.
You pushed me out and I'm not coming back in.
You made life into a game,
I didn't fall into the traps you made.
And now I'm leaving, leaving, leaving, leaving.

Angry words fill your mouth,
I'm trying to defend love.
Am I doing something wrong?

My mind is racing thoughts.
Will they ever be heard?
I always knew all along...

I could've seen it.
I knew it's coming.
Didn't know it would be now.
You've pushed me away,
We can't go back.
Nothing can change now.

*chorus*
You know what you've done,
Now, those days are gone.
You pushed me out and I'm not coming back in.
You made life into a game,
I didn't fall into the traps you made.
And now I'm leaving, leaving, leaving, leaving.

Words left unsaid.
Though remain in my head.
Will you hear them at all?

Your cold hearts will break,
Inside there's too much hate.
Nothing can change now.

Because,
You don't know the pain I've been through.
You tried to understand but it's no use.
Stop being double faced, it's not working.
It's all fake and now I'm leaving.

*chorus*
You know what you've done,
Now, those days are gone.
You pushed me out and I'm not coming back in.
You made life into a game,
I didn't fall into the traps you made.
And now I'm leaving, leaving, leaving, leaving.

You don't know what I've been through,
You never believe in the truth.
I've given up, I tried listening.
You've broken the bond and now I'm leaving.


It's been a tough week for me. I know, bad timing. Holidays- it's supposed to be happy!
Gee, how happy is this song?
It's been a while since I posted a full song anyway... 
I kind of needed to vent out somehow.
Thanks for reading!

Let's hope Christmas turns upside down and I'll have a cheerful song.

This is Madness.

Very long time no post. My apologies.
Seriously, I haven't even logged on blogger or picked up a songbook in what seems like ages. I've been so busy with school and extra-curricular activities. Well, now it seems like blogging will be a once-in-a-while thing, unfortunately. I hope not.
Newsongnewsong!

Again

You said you'd love me forever.
Well, that was a big mistake.
What you don't realize is that
I still remember that till this day.

Everything turned into pieces,
Your promises turned into lies.
It wasn't what I expected.
All you did was change your mind.

*chorus*
And now you're growing cold,
Everything I've ever known.
Slipping away from my hands,
And you keep coming back again.
And again.

The past is what's haunting me,
You know you care too. 
Good memories are hard to believe.
Cause sometimes all you care is about you.

Maybe sometimes you care,
But it's still forgotten.
Your mind is set to something else,
Even thought you haven't lost it.

*chorus*
And now you're growing cold,
Everything I've ever known.
Slipping away from my hands,
And you keep coming back again.
And again.

So don't try to come back to me,
You know that I wont believe,
I wont fall for your traps,
I know it wont last.

*chorus
And now you're growing cold,
Everything I've ever known.
Slipping away from my hands,
But you keep coming back again.
And again.
And again.

Why do you keep coming back again
If you already started to walk away?