Without You...

A long time ago I wrote the chorus of a song on a scrap piece of paper. Just recently, I found that scrap piece of paper mushed in one of my older songbooks...

I just thought I might share this song...

Without You
I hope, you feel the same way,
Missing me.
Maybe, you can imagine,
But you can’t see,
That my heart’s empty without you here,
I want you to be near
Being with you makes me feel so alive
Without you, I can’t survive.


It's about me missing my friends because I moved away from them.

Now that I found this... I might as well work on completing it...

PERFECTLY

I am sorry I haven't been on in a while... I was a bit too busy...

Well, now here I am... and more songs are on their way.

Here is a new song that I wrote recently... :)


PERFECTLY

First impressions make a big difference,
Of what other see.
You're able to see the outside,
Not the inside of me.
You just try to find who I am,
And not let me free,
It's hard to change myself,
When others believe...

That I have a perfect life...
Trust me, no I don't.
You think that...
I have no worries inside,
But you don't understand,
That I just keep trying,
To make my life what I want it to be.
I just wish that you could believe,
That I'm not living my life perfectly...

Sometimes you expect me to be so great,
It's hard to even try.
Every time I make a mistake,
You don't let it pass by.
You think I can do everything,
Do you know it's a lie?
I'm just starting to grow my wings,
And you're already making me fly...

You think that...
I have a perfect life,
Trust me, no I don't.
You think that...
I have no worries inside,
But you don't understand,
That I just keep trying,
To make my life what I want it to be.
I just wish that you could believe,
That I'm not living my life perfectly...

Perfectly... Perfectly...

I'm not living my life... Perfectly...

It's hard to change myself,
When others believe...

That I have a perfect life,
Trust me, no I don't.
You think that...
I have no worries inside,
But you don't understand,
That I just keep trying,
To make my life what I want it to be.
I just wish that you could believe,
That I'm not living my life perfectly...

The Start...

I was checking my blog and I had a question in my head. "How did I start to song-write?" I think it's just something that I developed an interest in. My best friends (who happen to be very talented and amazing singers) inspired me. I wrote a poem and one of my friends started to sing it for some odd reason. I just have one question for you. Would you care to read a poem? Poerty helps me with my songs and for some future songwriters, (such as myself) this tip might come in handy.

Lost in My Imagination

I am lost in my imagination,
In the land of my dreams,
I am lost, but I can find my way,
Every time I believe.

I am lost every time I wish,
I wish for this to never end,
I am following my heart’s desire,
Just like, it was my best friend.

I am lost because I reach,
I reach up high,
I will catch my dream,
Every time I try.

I am lost in a universe,
In a place where I belong,
A place where I can escape,
So I can sing all day long.

I am lost because I am dreaming,
Dreaming for my wishes to come true,
When I am in my own little world,
I am thinking of you.

1, 2, 3, 4 Goodbye

Goodbye,
The last words we said,
Before summer came.
I know this won't last,
Everything will change.
We will go our seperate ways,
But listen to me once, today.

One, two, three, four, goodbye,
Five, six, seven, eight, nine,
These moments will come to an end,
Time is ticking faster again and again.
We couldn't change it if we tried,
We couldn't go back in time.
I'm counting 'till the end...
One, two, three, four, goodbye,
Five, six, seven, eight, nine,

We'll be on our own now,
After we depart,
We will hope for the best,
From the very start.
Now its time for us to move on,
But the memories will never be gone.

One, two, three, four, goodbye,
Five, six, seven, eight, nine,
These moments will come to an end,
Time is ticking faster again and again.
We couldn't change it if we tried,
We couldn't go back in time.
I'm counting 'till the end...
One, two, three, four, goodbye,
Five, six, seven, eight, nine,

We will have to go our seperate ways,
If not now then some other day.
Lets make these moments last,
Because time is ticking by so fast...

One, two, three, four, goodbye,
Five, six, seven, eight, nine,

These moments will come to an end,
Time is ticking faster again and again.
We couldn't change it if we tried,
We couldn't go back in time.
I'm counting 'till the end...
One, two, three, four, goodbye,
Five, six, seven, eight, nine...
Goodbye

Trying to be free...

I'm taking the time to realize,
That I'm stuck in a sad song.
I'm making sure we don't fall,
I just have to move on,

I'm fed up with the things I do,
And all of my mistakes.
Every time I'm alone,
My heart starts to break.

I feel that,

Life's just a tag along,
Its just gonna follow me.
I just want to find myself,
Living happily.
Its my time, to realize,
That this isn't a perfect world.
I just want find myself,
Realizing who I'm supposed to be.

I'm stuck in the middle,
I don't know which side.
I feel I can't suceed,
But I put up with it and try.

I try to figure out,
Where my life is taking me,
The truth of the matter id,
Its not that easy.

I feel that,

Life's just a tag along,
Its just gonna follow me.
I just want to find myself,
Living happily.
Its my time, to realize,
That this isn't a perfect world.
I just want find myself,
Realizing who I'm supposed to be.

Deep inside I'm hiding in the shadow,
All I can do is to follow.
I can't even completely control,
Where my life is taking me...

Life's just a tag along,
Its just gonna follow me.
I just want to find myself,
Living happily.
It's my time, to realize,
That this isn't a perfect world.
I just want find myself,
Realizing who I'm supposed to be.
All I'm is trying to be free...

*Critique is Welcome*

I keep moving on,
But the memories stay.
It seems so hard,
But I have to move to a new place.

Inside my mind,
I hope to see,
That I can try,
I go back to the memories.

My world ahead is flying...
Flying over me...

I feel like I'm slowing down,
And I'm stuck in the shadows.
I feel like I'm spinning around,
And I cannot follow...
Because my mind is empty,
And its hard to define,
Who I am,
Right inside...

*I could not think of the rest of the song... but I hope I can work with it and continue on with it...

Music-in-Writing...

Now, you may be wondering how I got the name for this blog "Music in Writing?" RIGHT??? Well, if you're not, there will be a song on you're way, don't worry... this post isn't about how I made a name for this blog...

It wasn't easy to think of a name for this blog... I mean it was easy but you have to check if its available, appropriate, and actually come up with a name!!! My blog is about music, songwriting, and writing... songwriting is a combination of music and writing... also Music as wrting... so for some apparent reason, I named this Music in Writing...

I know I must have bored you with two useless paragraphs... so now here comes the fun part... the song.

I watched THE LIGHTNING THIEF today and I thought of the chorus of a song... Its just about showing who you really are. I honestly don't know how those lyrics came in my head but they natrually came to me... so here we go...


Why does it have to be so hard?
To be who I want to be...
Why can't I just stay strong?
And let you see whats inside of me...
Nobody told me,
It was going to be that easy...
To describe...
To describe who I am inside...

I know, I know...

It's been a while since I have posted another post... or a song for that matter. I am so sorry. Anyway, I found an old song in my song book and I though I might share it.

~FLY~

Walking alone,
With a dream to come true.

Just being invisible
Everyone sees through.

And she tried, to blend in
But she could only stand out.
And she didn’t know to turn it around.

She had no idea,
For what she has done.
The scars ran deep in her heart.
Being punished from the start.
She was scared
To come out of her shell.
Wanting to feel great inside.
All she wanted to do was fly.

Singing to her own tunes,
Her heart full of soul.

Just couldn’t figure out,
How to reach her goal.

And she tried, to blend in,
But no one would give her a try.
Leaving her alone to cry.

She had no idea,
For what she has done.
The scars ran deep in her heart.
Being punished from the start.
She was scared
To come out of her shell.
Wanting to feel great inside.
All she wanted to do was fly.

She didn’t ask for much.
And she’s being punished for being herself.

She didn’t want help. And she is already being pinned down
For being like no one else.

She had no idea,
For what she has done.
The scars ran deep in her heart.
Being punished from the start.
She was scared
To come out of her shell.
Wanting to feel great inside.
All she wanted to do was fly.


*Critique is Appreciated* :)



 

Quotes N' Notes...

I JUST CAME UP WITH A QUOTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"It's not easy being me... but I have to live with myself and do the best I can..."

I didn't come up with a new song but I thought I could share the quote... :D

P.S- I know I didn't write much, but hey! At least this is something!

Valentines Day!!!

Unfortunately, I have Writer's Block. For those of you who don't know what Writer's Block is, it's just when you just can't seem to write. You don't have any ideas or lyrics in your head. That's all.
If I didn't have Writer's Block, I would have tried to write a new song. Maybe something in the theme for Valentines Day. How can I write a Valentines Day song with no experience what-so-ever??? I usually write songs about experiences. I could just listen to other songs and get inspiration from those songs. I am not sure.
Wish me luck and hope my Writer's Block wears out.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!

Figured it would be time to get off my lazy bum...

So two nights ago, I woke up and I came up with a whole song. I woke up at around 2:00AM. I turned my light on and started writing frantically. If I didn't write it, I would have never remembered it!!! That happens to me a lot. I sometimes get too lazy to get out of my bed and start writing that in the morning, I FORGET!!!! Most of the songs that I write in the middle of the night are usually my best ones. Who would want to forget one of their best songs?!?!?! So thats why I decided that from now on, when I think of a song, I will write it down. (whether or not if I am tired or not)

And speaking of the topic of waking up in the middle of the night...
I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you realize how hard it is to sleep when you have so many thoughts inside your head?!?!?!?!?! I think of songs, flashbacks, favorite memories, dancing gorillas.(yes, dancing gorillas... I dont know what I ate that day... don't judge me)

It's the easiest way to write songs.(well, thats what I think)

Anyway, I just wanted to show you all my collection of notebooks. I collect a lot of things and I don't even know it! Tanktops, nailpolishes, pens, and now, notebooks. My friends think I have a lot, I don't know about you...



Well, now you can also see some of my favorite books. haha (as I said before... SOME of them)

I'm sorry... but I'm obsessed...

GUITARS!!!! Ok, so my whole life isn't revolved around with guitars, but I have a guitar, guitar pen (yes, it's a pen shaped like a guitar), a mini guitar clock.





Many people are obsessed with many things. I have some friends who are obsessed with basketballl. I also know some friends who love to dance all the way. My life is revolved around music. Music, singing, playing guitar and piano... you name it. Music is my passion... I love my passion...

Today I am having a writers block... sort of. I can think of lines of a song but I can't put the lines together. They don't make sense. Oh well, I hope the writer's block will end soon and I can actually write some songs. :)

Creative Thoughts

Do you ever wonder where a songwriter keeps all of his/or her songs? Do they keep the songs in a notebook? On a laptop? On a scrap piece of paper? Where? Where? Where? Personally, I think keeping a notebook is handy. Many songwriters (and writers in general) use a notebook but some perfer other items. (laptops, scrap paper... ect)

My song notebook isn't the neatest notebook in the world. Its full of ideas, doodles, "autographs", and of course, lyrics. Some pages of the notebook are REALLY neat. I mean, REALLY neat that it scares me. Sometimes its just plain messy. Ususally my best songs are messy because I keep on editing them over and over and over again. Then again, the songs that are written really neatly are also pretty good. Here is a page from my songbook.



See what I mean? THIS is what I call messy. The song is "Different Kind of Perfect" (which has already been posted on the blog)

Some pages are a bit NEATER...



DON'T JUDGE ME!!! My printing is normally neater. For some odd reason, I like to keep my songbook messy... it brings character.

PS- Normally, I would have freaked if I saw myself posting some pages of my songbook onto this blog... but I decided it would at least make the blog a tinsey bit more interesting... don't you agree??? :D

P.S.S- On the first song... the song is pretty much on one page... on the second song, I just posted the first side of the page, the song is double sided.

Something that I Just Came Up With....

Hey everybody!
I am just listening to some music... and now I got an idea for a chorus.
I just came up with it so I hope you like it.

I can't open my heart with a care,
Without knowing I'll get hurt.
I can't reach out my hand out there,
Without knowing I'll be pulled,
Inside a trap,
I don't know where I'm at.
Feels like a dream,
A dream thats scaring me.

I am not completely sure what I should call this so if you have any ideas, please comment and please comment on what you think of the song. Thanks and I hope you like this!

P.S- I am not so sure about the last two lines "Feels like a dream, a dream thats scaring me." I might change it or just keep it.

To all of the Aspired Singers in the World...

I am so sorry that I haven't posted another post in a long time. I was caught up in school and in my life...

I was just watching American Idol and I just wanted to say...
CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE WHO MADE IT PAST THE AUDITIONS!!!!

I hope that someday I could be on American Idol. (or a singing competition for that matter) Its amazing to see so many people who enjoy what I like to do. If its singing, writing, playing guitar or just plain music. I bet they were scared to face the judges. Of course they were. They have so much courage to face the judges and show what they've got. I can't wait ot see who wins and all of the other episodes of American Idol... Good Luck to all...

I came up with a verse of a new song and am working on the rest. I will post all of it soon. I am not sure what its called yet. I would appreciate it if you would maybe comment on it and tell me what you think of it. Thanks! :D

"I talked to my friends to get you out of my head
But you popped in again and again,
Wondering if, what you were thinking then,
I really don’t know.

Sometimes I wish you could even see,
The fire that’s burning inside of me.
Can’t you even let me have some peace?
I know you won’t…"


This is all I have. PLEASE tell me what you think.
Thats all I can say for today... over and out! haha! :P

Experiences

I like to write about personal experiences as well as writing about what happens to my friends and family. I mostly write about personal experiences because its easier. You would only know how YOU would feel... not how someone else feels...
Sometimes writing about friends can be interesting because you are trying to relate to them. You want to know what its like to be in their position. Here is a song about a personal experience.

Not Gonna Fall Again

For whatever you’ve done,
I’m trying to ignore the pain.

People take sides,
Whether to lose or gain.

When I looked at you, you seemed so nice,
But when I go inside, It’s not a pretty sight.

*chorus*
I’m not gonna fall again,
I’ll get stronger when,
You say all these things,
That you don’t want me to hear.
I’m not gonna fall again.
I would have done that then,
But I’ll never, ever,
Drop down in front of you.

Now everything changes,
I hope things move on,

Don’t want these memories to come back
So please be gone.

When I was with you, I followed your lead,
When you kicked me out, I tried not to plead.

*chorus*

I’m sick and tired of all these things
Look at what I’ve been
Stop wondering,
Look with your eyes.
I'm being hurt all this time

I’m not gonna fall again,
I’ll get stronger when,
You say all these things,
That you don’t want me to hear.
I’m not gonna fall again.
I would have done that then,
But I’ll never, ever,
Drop down in front of you.


This song is about not trying to fall down and not being afraid from being picked on and from being hurt. You are not gonna fall and run away from your fears. This is sort of a motivation to stand up to whoever is picking on you. I hope whoever is "listening" or "reading" this will remember to be strong and stand up for themselves and for others.

Without You.

I know, you feel the same way,
Just missing me.
I know, you can’t imagine,
You can’t see,
That my heart’s empty without you here,
All I want is for you to be near
Being with you makes me feel so alive
Without you, I can’t survive.

This is the chorus of a song that I am currently working on. I don't know exactly what its about. (maybe its about missing someone or not being able to survive without someone... like a friend) I just came up with it. I'll try to add on to it. ☺

Mirror

I just made up the chorus of a new song... I am still working on the rest of the song but here it is:

Mirror

Tell me honestly,
Who I’m meant to be?
Why does the mirror always lie?
Is it that hard to see?
My personality, shine through…
But the mirror won’t tell me.

When you look in the mirror, what do you see? You just see your reflection. You don't see your personality, or who you are inside. Its hard for everyone to understand the real you. Thats what this song is about.

*Critique is Appreciated*
 

Taylor Swift...

ALL HAIL TAYLOR SWIFT! HAHA...
I love her! She is one of my idols!!!! An amazing singer, beautiful songwriter and role model all around... I love her songwriting skills! I usually get my inspiration listening to her. Although she is country-pop, and I usually listen to more pop/rock, her lyrics are very inspirational. I was listening to her song "White Horse" and I was also listening to "Crazier." They both made me want to cry. I don't know what got to me. I wasn't bawling like a baby, but I had some tears come out of my eyes. Maybe it reminded me of my best friends, buy why did I cry at "White Horse?" That had nothing to do with my friends! The lyrics were so emotional and moving.
It's amazing what songwriters can do. They make their audiences feel what the writer feels. The song can relate to the audience. I hope that someday, I will be able to move my audience and make them understand what I feel. As well as relate to them.

Just another Dream...

Okie- dokie... here we go...

Like many people in this world, I have dreams. (Are we allowed to have more than one?!?! HAHA) One of the dreams is to have an album... or in other words, I want to be a singer-songwriter. I have a whole bunch of notebooks full of lyrics and poetry... here is a song... enjoy! :)

Fly

Walking alone,
With a dream to come true.

Just being invisible
Everyone sees through.

And she tried, to blend in
But she could only stand out.
And she didn’t know to turn it around.

*chorus*
She had no idea,
For what she has done.
The scars ran deep in her heart.
Being punished from the start.
She was scared
To come out of her shell.
Wanting to feel great inside.
All she wanted to do was fly.

Singing to her own tunes,
Her heart full of soul.

Just couldn’t figure out,
How to reach her goal.

And she tried, to blend in,
But no one would give her a try.
Leaving her alone to cry.

*chorus*
She had no idea,
For what she has done.
The scars ran deep in her heart.
Being punished from the start.
She was scared
To come out of her shell.
Wanting to feel great inside.
All she wanted to do was fly.

She didn’t ask for much.
And she’s being punished for being herself.
She didn’t want help.
And she is already being pinned down
For being like no one else.

*chorus*
She had no idea,
For what she has done.
The scars ran deep in her heart.
Being punished from the start.
She was scared
To come out of her shell.
Wanting to feel great inside.
All she wanted to do was fly.

Well... that's it. It's mainly about a girl (think of this girl as me) and she is different from everyone else. She has different interests, hopes, dreams and she feels like she stands out from the rest. This is typically how I feel most of the time. I know that many people out there in the world know how I feel. Sometimes you want to stand out, but you are just too shy to bring out the REAL you.
P.S- I know you don't know the tune... I understand, but I hope you like the lyrics!