It's only the beginning

NEW BLOG!

http://splinteredsecrets.blogspot.com

Don't worry, y'all, I'll still write in this blog. For sure. A peek inside a music freak's life is most important. (So much for important, haven't posted in over a month)'

I just thought, that with another blog, I can easily rant and whatnot. I figured I'd devote this blog to more musical stuff... just to keep it simple.

Nonetheless, check it out! I will be posting on both!

Adios

December = EnEx

Well... HI.

I guess I'm a stranger to you because I haven't posted in ages.
WELL, I'M SORRY. SCHOOL IS TOUGH YA'KNOW

I'm now back on track to my musical endeavours! Which is why I'm giving an update. :)

I'm back on the third (and final) instalment of my EnEx project. For those who don't know, it's a project where we go beyond our comfort zones and learn more about a career and/or passion.

Mine is, of course, music production... again.

THIS YEAR WE GET TO WORK WITH A MENTOR. AHHHH.

And that means... I get to produce a song!

The purpose of this assignment is to get out of our little bubble that we call comfort and work on "real life" skills. This means finding a mentor, getting one, working with one, etc. It's a lot harder and stressful that it sounds, because we have to do assignments (i.e progress logs, reflections, other paperwork, evaluations) but I think it is worth it.

I mean, it's not every day I will get to work with a producer, let alone make a song, perhaps?

This project will be over the course of the next 5 months or so. I'll keep updates on here as well. :D

Sorry, no song today. I know, bummer. Winter break is coming up soon... I'll post a song then. How 'bout that? :)

Happy December!

A poem, perhaps?

Listen

We strive to let the world know
We belong,
As if our faults cannot be seen,
They point them out,
And tell us to change.
We try to walk down our path,
The one with open doors,
To achieve.
But they turn the light off,
And tell us we can't.
So we,
Listen


I know it's been a LONG time since I last posted, but I tried?! School and extra-cirriculars have been keeping me busy. Same old, same old.

I might turn this poem into a song. I have a feeling this is the chorus. What do you all think?

2 Months No See

Well, whoops! It's been nearly two months since I last posted. (I hope you noticed I deleted my videos. It's way too time consuming. Maybe I'll just stick to garageband recording.)

Yeah. That's about it. I just thought I'd say hi. My apologies for the lack of content on here. (especially lately.)
I wrote a whole bunch of new songs. No, I'm not saying that just to stall for time. I mean it. I wrote a bunch.

So there you go! I'm busy with school and such, so don't be surprised if I don't post in a while.

BUT I WON'T . I'M NOT THAT EVIL AND MEAN.

I'M A NICE PERSON. :)

Life Story

First of all, I would like to say that I'm really, really, really, super-de-duper sorry for not keeping my promise from the last post that I will post a new video. I should really just shut up.

I WAS BUSY, KAY? And no, no song today. It's a life story. (Time for Mani to get rambling!)

Anywhoo, I've had a bunch of people ask me how I got interested in this whole music biz. Now, if you don't want to hear all this mambo jumbo, well, feel free to browse around the blog. If you're really not interested in my blog at all, why are you even here? :P (but I love you for giving me a view!)

Alrighty, once upon a time, long before I wrote songs, I wrote poetry. Poetry about anything, anytime. Pizza, weather... you name it.
I was 6.
And when I was 6, I was randomly singing on top of the coffee table in the living room like there was no tomorrow. (My mom made videos. There's proof. I'm so glad I have no idea where they are.)

Shortly after, I wrote a song... about pizza...
Let's say there wasn't much going on at that time.
*fastforward*

I was 9 when I wrote a song with meaning. My friend (*super talented friend) sang a poem of mine, and instantly said it was better off as a song.
I wasn't really a happy chap, I was a poet after all. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that I was a better songwriter then a poet. Then I wrote more songs. And started singing them too.

And I got Tino. (my acoustic guitar, for those who don't know.)

I wrote more songs and poems. And I got Vannie. (my electric guitar.)

I wrote more songs and poems.... and here I am today!

That's it! A really lame story about how I got inspired to start pursuing music.

Oh, and I played piano during this story too. Ahaha.

Yuppers... *awkward silence*

Insincerity

Way to be optimistic, Mani.
Well, here goes nothing.


Insincerity 


Here you are right in front of me,
My heart is stabbed by memories.
Broken promises between you and me.
All cause of your insincerity. 

I'm falling from the force,
It keeps bringing me down.
I can't seem to find my soul.
It's nowhere to be found.

But I'm not going anywhere,
You have no right to push me.
All this time I've been in pain,
Get me out of this misery.

*chorus*
Here you are right in front of me,
My heart is stabbed by memories.
Broken promises between you and me.
All cause of your insincerity.

Being unaccepted for who I am.
It's hard to change me,
I don't want to please you,
I can't please everybody.

I'm slowly walking away,
Don't chase after me.
I've been in pain,
Get me out of this misery

*chorus*
Here you are right in front of me,
My heart is stabbed by memories.
Broken promises between you and me.
All cause of your insincerity.

Here you are right in front of me,
My heart is stabbed by memories.
Broken promises between you and me.
All cause of your insincerity.

 I can't please everybody.


Yeah. There you have it.

I'd Stop

I'm getting worked up, tired,
I'm frustrated.
I can't keep my mind straight.
You haven't seen me in anguish.

Ignorance has blinded you.
You just walk away,
I'm losing the connection,
There's nothing left to say.

It's hard to keep trust when there
Was nothing to start with.
Years have come and gone,
But the hole never patched up.

*chorus*
I'd stop the whole world,
I'd stop those just like you.
I'd make you stop and watch,
Make you remember and regret.
I'd stop you from hurting me.
I'd stop myself from falling,
I'd make you search for me,
But I'll never be found.
Cause I am gone.

[Insert rest of the song here]

^ I'm in a little bit of a rush, and I haven't posted in quite a while (sorry!) so I decided to jot down a bunch of verses.
Why must choruses be so difficult to write? This chorus is still a work in progress... It's a bit rough, don'tcha think? :(

On a much sweeter note, (Haha. Note. Get it? Note! Haha. No? Okay. I'll keep my lame jokes to myself) I baked red velvet cupcakes a couple of days ago! Unfortunately, I didn't take any pics, but they were delicious.
Thanks Betty Crocker and her cake mixes. (I cheated. Used cake mix.) ;)

I'll be continuing my baking and musical endeavours...

Until next time. :)

Unresolved Ending

And we break up into shattered fragments,

Not knowing how to respond to the rest.

The world is a blur,

As we happen to see only our matters,

The existence of others fails to be noticed.

We cry to the world,

But deaf to the sounds of cries of help from those who need it the most.

We walk away from a hand in need,

Blinded by what we want.

The cycle goes on

Until one

Falls.

^ Yup. Another poem. :)

Buddy :)

Hi y'all!

Here's a link to my friend's website. I hope you guys check it out. It's pretty cool, and he's posted a bunch of my links on it too. (Aww yeah! I'm being promoted! Hahah)

He's a pianist, composer and writes songs as well.

Just. Like. Moi. :D

Awesomeness? I think so.

So check out The House of Music 1

And keep coming back soon. I'll be posting more videos and songs up. (Finally!)

Why

If it weren't for you,
I wouldn't have written this song,
I wouldn't have been in despair,
No one needed to catch me.

I thought I had place to call my own,
But instead I was manipulated.
I never thought I'd be so vulnerable,
But look at what you've shown.

*chorus*
Why did I crumble myself?
Why did you throw me away?
Why did you pick me up,
And placed me someplace safe?

But now if it weren't for you,
I'd be at the bottom of the hole,
I'd be climbing the walls,
Trying to get up.

And I thought I had no hope
But I found myself an angel.
I've been granted a wish,
I never thought I'd ever wish for.

*chorus*

Why did I crumble myself?
Why did you throw me away?
Why did you pick me up,
And placed me someplace safe?

Why did I break apart?
Why did you kick me aside?
Why did you pick me up,
When I was about to run and hide?

Why did you hold me close,
When they picked a fight?

Ours- Taylor Swift cover

Why didn't I make a youtube before? I'm liking this. :)

Here's my cover of Ours by Taylor Swift. Hopefully, it's much better than my last video. (I'm going to work on that...)

Hope you liked it!

Yes. I know. I'm really awkward in introducing and concluding.

I need your opinion. My last video (Hey Darling) was recorded on my camcorder and this one in photo booth. Which one is better? (in terms of audio and video quality.)

Also, I finally got a macbook pro, which means one thing... GARAGEBAND. :)
Mac + Summer = Recording.

Can't wait!

FINALLY

So I gave up and decided to make a youtube channel.
AND MY VIDEO IS UP TOO. MWUAHAHAHA.

Anyway, for those that want to know, the link for my channel is www.youtube.com/TheManiD11

First video; kind of rough and choppy. As I keep making more videos, I'll continue to get better. (I hope. haha)

I hope you like the video for my song ""Hey Darling". <-- click on the link for lyrics. (:

Yeah, yeah. I was nervous so my guitar skills were not the greatest, and my voice wasn't close to good as I thought it would be.
DON'T WORRY, I WON'T TORTURE YOU LIKE THAT AGAIN. I promise I'll do better next time! And perhaps a cover? :)

Currently untitled sad, "pick me up" song

You'll make your way,
You'll find a path to get out,
You've held it for so long,
Without a scream or a shout.

It's hard to let go,
Everything is out of control,
Know that I'll be there,
There's so much to know.

Remember the love, it'll make you stronger.
You can spread your wings, you can fly,
Remember you'll be watched over...

So just close your eyes,
You're in for a roller coaster ride.
Every day will have another sunrise.
Even if every chapter ends sad,
Remember that the story hasn't finished.
So keep your head high, your chin up,
Look at the stars to see.


And every step you make,
Will be the start of an adventure,
So open up a new chapter,
And hold on to those memories.

Remember the love, the memories are there,
The world's spinning fast, but even through despair,
Remember you can find a way out.

So just close your eyes,
You're in for a roller coaster ride.
Every day will have another sunrise.
Even if every chapter ends sad,
Remember that the story hasn't finished.
So keep your head high, your chin up,
Look at the stars to see.

Words like goodbye,
Seems so hard to spit out,
And you don't know when you can say hello again.
But listen,
There's too much to say in this world.
So remember, keep the love in your heart.

So just close your eyes,
You're in for a roller coaster ride.
Every day will have another sunrise.
Even if every chapter ends sad,
Remember that the story hasn't finished.
So keep your head high, your chin up,
Look at the stars to see.


^ YAY! ANOTHER NEW SONG THAT I WROTE ABOUT A WEEK AGO BUT FAILED TO POST UNTIL NOW. :D

Summer

Time for eating, sleeping, hanging out, vacationing, more sleeping, more eating, more of doing nothing... and most importantly...

Writing more songs and playing more music.

I feel like I've neglected this blog, and I feel terrible! But now that summer's here, I have lots of time. And if I can't write a post, then... well, spazz at me all you want.

Also, if you haven't done yet, please subscribe! I'm usually not the type of person who asks to like on fb, share and subscribe, but I'd love it if you did! Please and thank you!

And I added a bunch more pics on the pics page if you want a look.

More songs to come, pinky promise. :)

-Mani

Surrender

Surrender

And if I had the choice,
I’d let all of it slip away.
Letting each wave slowly strip my hopes, dreams, achievements, away until it’s all gone.

And I wouldn’t look back,
I’d keep strolling until I fall;
Surrendering.
Letting the beast have a taste of victory.

And there aren't any second chances,
Once you hear the footsteps approach;
This psychopathic decision.

Every story has a villian.

 ^ Very deep and dark poem, eh? I found this in my notebook, liked it and decided to type it. It's quite old. :)

Reality

As the days go on, the busier I get. Which kind of sucks, considering that I barely have time to write on here.
FINALLY, I HAVE A SONG! :D
Happiness is twisting and turning in my stomach.

Why do you stay for a while,
When you're gone for the rest of the day.
What's the use of having your around?
When I can't see you, you're not help at all.

So you're picking on me for not caring at all,
But in reality, my words go in one ear and out the other.

*chorus*
And someday, I'll find a way out.
I'll walk out of that door.
I'll never come back,
You don't know what's in store.
And you'll make your way in,
And you can't find me.
Wake up, time to learn your lesson.
This is reality.

You won't find me....
You won't find me.

And why do you ponder around,
You voice is like nails on a chalkboard.
You've become so useless,
You can leave now, I know you're bored.

But rather than you leaving, maybe I'll take a step,
So expect the unexpected.

*chorus*
And someday, I'll find a way out.
I'll walk out of that door.
I'll never come back,
You don't know what's in store.

And you'll make your way in,
And you can't find me.
Wake up, time to learn your lesson.
This is reality.


I've given you plenty of chances.
I've reminded you of your rights and wrongs.
But all you're ever were, and will be is pathetic,
Useless, a liar and a hypocrite.

*chorus*
And someday, I'll find a way out.
I'll walk out of that door.
I'll never come back,
And you can't find me.
This is reality.

So, wake up, time to learn your lesson.
This is reality.

Unloved Reflection

And those mirrors remind us
Of how worthless,
Meaningless,
Unappreciated,
Repulsive
And ignored we are.
But do the mirrors tell the tales,
Or do our eyes?

Impossible

Just yesterday, it seems as if I was,
Small and scared, caring what everyone thought,
Playing battles of who can say
Those nasty words.

Inside your heart, you're controlled by,
Troubled ghosts, having no sense of direction.
Pretending as if nothing happened,
Nothing happened at all.

*chorus*
And I'm trying to catch a star but it's too far away.
It impossible to find.
It's like trying to fix broken promises,
It seems impossible to try

And like throwing pebbles,
But even more harsh, I shatter my reflection,
'Cause meeting up expectations
And learning others preconception
Is what I need.

*chorus*
And I'm trying to catch a star but it's too far away.
It impossible to find.
It's like trying to fix broken promises,
It seems impossible to try

And if I can't figure out how to fix this,
Clean off the dirt that we've spread.
Clear our meaningless expectations,
That are all stuck in our heads.

*chorus*
And I'm trying to catch a star but it's too far away.
It impossible to find.
It's like trying to fix broken promises,
It seems impossible to try

Because our expectations are meaningless,
They only break hearts.
Shatter reflections
And control us.


^ Alrighty! That last verse, right after the last chorus is actually from a poem that I wrote today. And some little tidbits here and there were from that poem also. I sandwiched them into the song. Hopefully it worked! :)

Favor

And you pushed me closer to the edge,
I'm falling in the air.
You pushed me closer, now I'm gone,
I'm flying someplace else,
Don't catch me, I don't need a favor.
A favor, a favor.

So what happened to the word friend?
Has it all tumbled to an end?
Don't bother patching up those lies,
There's one word left: goodbye.

Was it me who fell in the trap?
I didn't know you'd change so fast.
I'm sick and tired of being ignored,
You push me then pick me up.

So go.
I don't need the two faces,
It's a mix of love and hate,
Why am I wasting time for
Things to get better?

*chorus*
And you pushed me closer to the edge,
I'm falling in the air.
You pushed me closer, now I'm gone,
I'm flying someplace else,
Don't catch me, I don't need a favor.
A favor, a favor.

Finally a song! Yay! :)

Higher

Here I go,
Walking down the path,
That leads me home,
And when I'm lost in the dark,
All I need to do is think about you,
And I'll finally arrive.

You open my eyes.
Everywhere I go, everything is in color.
I see the clear blue sky,
Every moment seems to get better and better.
Watch the birds fly,
They're taking our dreams higher and higher.
Higher. Higher.

Here I am,
At my destination,
I'm feeling glad,
Your shield is protecting me
And when I'm alone,
What I can do is think about you,
And you're already there. 

You open my eyes.
Everywhere I go, everything is in color.
I see the clear blue sky,
Every moment seems to get better and better.
Watch the birds fly,
They're taking our dreams higher and higher.
Higher. Higher.

I keep walking and walking.
Unaware of the traps that will ambush me.
And I'm smiling and smiling.
Living the life of pure ecstasy.
But the world's turning grey, so suddenly.
Just catch me.

And you'll open my eyes.

You open my eyes.
Everywhere I go, everything is in color.
I see the clear blue sky,
Every moment seems to get better and better.
Watch the birds fly,
They're taking our dreams higher and higher.
Higher. Higher.


^ Just a song our of the blue. Listened to a song by Megan & Liz and it got me inspired to write something more positive and upbeat. :)